Why? Because I believe life is for the living. I believe in taking risks and biting off more than you can chew. And also, people were yelling and I got confused about the rules.

clearly i have no idea what life is about these days. shit. wait. retract that.

never have. never will. and i like it that way.

my apologies. ive gotten lots of shit for no posts. from people i don’t even know — which is all sorts of awkward. especially since its been drilled into my head by a lot of my college friends that i keep them awake in lectures. thanks kids but unfortunately i can’t give you that piece of paper your parents blew a couple hundred racks to maybe promise that youll apply yourself and get a job. but in all actuality 8 times outta 10 the kid in the mailroom who’s been there for the last 5 years working his way up will take it from you.

so you win you fuckers. i start again. NOW QUIT BITCHING.

i never explain myself but i will say this once and once only cause im sick of being asked.

long story short: i peaced out this bitch cause i had no focus. no drive. extreme vapidness.

as life keeps on truckin, im reminded of moral fiber

a lot of things have switched it up on me as of late, and I AM AMPED

interestingly enough, about 2 and a half months ago, i told a friend that i was going to change a lot. stop all hesitation — that i wasnt going to guess every god damn thing that crossed my path. or drill so many questions into my brain about every good thing. that in turn i make myself so scared and never take anything up. i guess that i was going to learn to exhale. ( insert really really unhetero insult here ) and sure enough about 2 weeks later i think i actually woke up. and possibilities/opportunities just kind of fell into my lap.

anyone that knows me knows i definitely am on my own little planet, answer to no one, openly dont give a shit about a lot. on one hand i am impulsive and extreme but on the other, i am the most overly analytical, skeptical and hesitant person ever. i can be explained in 2 very very simple photos:

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ya somethings just dont change. 21 years in and those pictures from 2 and 4 sum it allll up.

anyways back to my pointlessness

the moral of it all: get over 2009. kick 2010 in the ass.

going to literally change EVERYTHING i know. i gotta say, ive been talking a lot more to my parentals lately, and its mind blowing how supportive they are. my dad always told me:

if you aren’t taking a risk, its not worth it

pretty sure its about that time i sack up and listen to the man. stop being a complete and utter puss and live life. in the wise words of wu-tang:

:dont go against the grain if you can’t handle it:

…. aaaand im pretty sure i was born against the grain.

so im back

shut up

bye